The Anwer I Been Waiting - 1st Day

Yesterday on Monday i finally ask her to giv me the answer. But she oso dunno wanted to give me what answer. At last, she agree with me that she will give me the answer after a week which means there onli 7 days to go.
Today is the 1st day, she still like normally in the morning will "sms" to me to greet me morning. But when turn to office time, we absolutely didn't chat at all in skype. I think this show that our distance really getting very far. But when the time almost wanna off work, then she onli msg me telling that tonight she going out with her fren. So i let her go because this is her freedom.
By then after that, we less continue to chat edi. Once she reach home, she just telling me she reach home safety. Then after a while, when she on9, we totally didn't chat at all. I think she already get abit of her answer.
So at here i'm waiting for the answer till the last day. Eventhough it is a good news or bad news.. i will accept it and i will always respect her decision.

My fault

Since the day she back from trip, and begin on 23/2/08 i feel there is something wrong that has happen. She looks like wanna ignore me all the time. Whatever question i ask, she oso dun wan answer and didn't hear it. But when she ask me and i didn't answer then will say i'm look cocky.. Then like on 24/2/08 she totally mood down.. i chat wit her and ask her thing she just can answer me 1 answer.. she is totally different from the one b4 she like tis. I'm feel veri suffer and hurt when see like this. I asked what i hav done n did i do wrong thing.. she say not my fault. But i can feel it when she face wit me when chatting.. totally like dun wan to talk wit me at all. If i do wrong thing, can please tell me?

Nice Spicy Soup~~

Yesterday nite i finally taste the Spicy Soup.. there oledi so long i waited. It's taste good. Once the 1st taste i eat it, i feel like pepper soup but after a while it turn to a delicious soup. Can't imagine i hav to waited so long onli can taste this food.
Anyway.. finally i can taste it. Eventhough is abit late for me to taste the food but it is worth for me i think. So sad dun hav the pic if got, i will post it here to show to everyone.
hehe...^^

ZzZZZ...

It's around 10:45pm.. i dunno wat i hav been waiting.. my mood getting down..opening the pc dunno do wat.. haih.. better i just look for my bed n hav a nice comfortable sleep.
Well.. Goodnites to everybody...

Nobody know wat i feel

Nowadays there is many thing happen to me and many thing i start to lost it half by half. Does any1 know wat my feeling? The feeling i get is bcome heavier n almost make me down. There's sometimes when i refuse anything, there's no good thing i get.. onli bad thing n becoming reli bad thing. Like 1 time my fren ask me go out drink.. i refuse them.. then they say many bad thing.. do u know how my feel is? Don't u think i dun wan to go? i am reli wan to go. But it is too far for me edi and i dun like going late edi. Sometime the journey i take is veri tiring to me and sometime i force myself from tiring to join u all. It's is reli hard for me. And got tis time, they say i hav no opinion.. do u know y? bcoz i dun wan to make opinion coz after i make edi, some will dun like.. so better just follow ur order. Coz i m a nothing person.
Sometime like tis reli makes me hard to b a person. It is reli more stressful for me. For now, even hard or suffer, i will go through it happily.

-The End-

Am i right or wrong?

I hav been always keeping agree wit everyone. But nowadays there is many burden and something blocking around me. As for last time, i hav learn from my fren to say "No" becoz most of the time i onli will say "Yes".. but now.. i guess wat i learn is against me. Sometime i say "No" many ppl will dislike it.
Therefore i feel i'm lost. Just like a few days ago, i receive a call.. my fren ask me to go out at nite to join them eat but i say i can't.. then they started talk bad wit me.. but wat they wan me to do?
Before like tat u all also like tis when i sometime ask to go out years ago. Am i wrong if i disagree everything?
And now i think i lost everything now. Guess tis is the faith of me.

-The End-

Me, Myself.. I am What i am

After a while i hav been thinking about myself, i finally know how is about myself. I'm a guy tat reli veri easy to tolerate wit ppl n mostly i will give the person to take over the place. Mayb i'm a person that veri easy to follow up by emotion. This is becoz i dun wan to make hard of people like when going to some place or restaurant, i will let them to decide the thing n i will just agree coz everything i was fine wit it. Sometime when they ask me to decide, i oso feel hardly to decide coz when i decide the thing or order the food that not suitable for them then will make hard to them. Tat's y i will let them decide all the thing if in this way will make them happier. Am i silly being like tis? i guess got bit. But there's 1 reason i wanted to like tis is becoz of i dun wan to get sad or see other ppl sad. I just wanna see them happy like all the happy fruit in the world. Everyday we also wanted to see happy things and dun wan to see or feel the sad thing. But sometime we oso hardly to avoid from the sad feelings.(like getting sacked by the boss, get scold by frens or parents...etc) Well, i guess i can think till up here for today coz sometime i quite confusing about myself. Hope that i won't will see any of sad thing anymore. HaPPy Always & Forever... To b continue...