Hurt...

Yesterday Sunday, i was checking my mail but then i receive her mail. Her mail was written "Take Care" as the tittle. I was wondering wat was it. But i can feel that it must b something not good. So i read the mail.. the mail was very surprise me. Coz she say that her heart was still with her ex. After i read it all, i guess the decision has been made. Well, what can i do? I also know this thing will happen coz sometime i hav saw her ex sms her and with every sms also start with "dear" here n there. So i just silent myself. I know like this is a stupid thing but i dun wanna make an arguement with her. All i wan is to let her happy.
So, till yesterday nite, i finally realise that we should stop for it. Got 1 day i saw her msn written "appreaciate the 2nd chance.. not every chance can b given so easily..cherish it well" then till yesterday i finally realise it that it was meant to her ex. I guess her heart is belongs to her ex. Somemore her ex was also love her so much. And he got tell me b4 that 1 day he will take her back. So now here it goes, appreciate it all the chance u got. What i can do is just wish both of u happiness to the full. I also dun wanna b the third party or continue to fight with it coz it sure will hurt all of us. I rather sit here watching both of u holding hand n doing sweet thing than i go there disturb u.
As for me, i admit that i reli got a very hard feeling. But i hav no choice. Mayb i was not as good as ur ex. He can make u laugh more than me and he can treat u good more than me. I think u with him must b very happy. I know this matter will took me a long time to release it coz she was one person that make me feel wat is love. But nvm, i hereby wanna wish u happy always n gonna grew old wit ur ex now with full happiness which he'll giv u. He is a good choice and i believe he can do it more better than me. Appreciate the love upon you. My job is done here. With now i'm writing, i've drop 1 tear. This tear is to giv u with the full wishes from me that may u hav the full happiness.
And lastly wat i wan to say is.. I always..gonna always remember the day we spent together, having fun together. I love you always. Take Care...

=The End=

2nd October 08

Today is the 1st day of Hari Raya, i and my frens went to Genting Highland..it was super jam in the middle of the way going up there but luckily we manage to get up there with a nice parking.. hahaha...but when we step into casino..unexpectedly i hav lose RM50 but my fren they win more.. hahaha... guess i dun hav the luck.. hope next time the luck will fall in me.. :P
After that we went to Desa Park City.. It was a very glamour and elegant places which all the houses was build in three storey house ( i wish i can hav one of these house in future).. it was so nice... then we take our dinner at there and guess wat... even their restaurant or the park are superb. We can enjoy a nice view while having meal... and can jog around at the park there.. It's was a very nice play...
Gonna set myself a target for that 1... hahahaa...
work hard work hard work hard..... earn more money... hopefully in future i will manage to get one of those houses. :P

Missing You

Finally i've started to continue blog. It's 12 days edi since i never see my gf rocian.. very miss her now... wish to see her face.. but what i can do is just wondering around and think... This is the 1st time that i miss a person very deep and unpatiently.
Miss her cute and sweet voice...
Miss her cute attitude...
Miss her face...
Miss her funny action when watching movie..
The fact is i very miss her...
Well, still got 9 more days to go.. wish her always in happy and hav fun all the time. Hope time can pass faster..

Life

What is life? I've been wondering around about this question. When someone pass away, where do they headed? Do they still around here? What is the feeling when we die?

Last 2 weeks, i heard that my boss brothers was pass away. It was so sudden cause i saw him was still in good condition and can jokes around there on the day before he died. Then i only knew that he died in toilet. He was just slip down inside the toilet then his life was taken away like tat. It's was so surprisingly.

Then last few days, my cousin's father had pass away. It was so pity cause he was a happy and great person. That day i was chatting with his daughter about going for a swim with all of the cousin. Then after that when i wanted to call my mum, i only knew that thing happen. My heart was sad and when i saw his children and his wife, my tears start coming out. His daughter is going to engage on the end of this year and now i think his daughter must be very sad cause can't wait till the day her daughter get her happiness.

I think life may taken away in a sudden and without feeling it. And sometime it's gonna happen unexpectedly. Life is very important to everyone. Therefore we should appreciate and cherish it every time. Cherish all the things in front of our eyes.

=The End=

The Song Of That Show what I'm feeling now..

爱情是一本存折 零存快乐
每天查询有多少的余额
你设下难猜密码 把自己锁著
既然给你的我就不会舍不得
我没有借口 去预支你的自由
也没有理由為了偿还爱的承诺
放弃你的天空
爱你很多 很多
只想存给你快乐
却提了更多寂寞
存爱存在记忆中
回忆太让我富有
思念却让我贫穷
还有多少青春可以挥霍对爱的执著
就让泪水轻轻慢慢流
再驀然回首
爱情是一本存折 零存快乐
每天查询有多少的余额
你设下难猜密码 把自己锁著
既然给你的我就不会舍不得
我没有借口
去预支你的自由
也没有理由為了偿还爱的承诺
放弃你的天空
爱你很多 很多
只想存给你快乐
却提领更多寂寞 存爱存在记忆中
回忆太让我富有 思念却让我贫穷
爱你很多 很多
只想存给你快乐
却提领更多寂寞 存爱存在记忆中
回忆太让我富有 思念却让我贫穷
还有多少青春可以挥霍
对爱的执著
就让泪水轻轻慢慢流 再驀然回首

The Anwer I Been Waiting - 1st Day

Yesterday on Monday i finally ask her to giv me the answer. But she oso dunno wanted to give me what answer. At last, she agree with me that she will give me the answer after a week which means there onli 7 days to go.
Today is the 1st day, she still like normally in the morning will "sms" to me to greet me morning. But when turn to office time, we absolutely didn't chat at all in skype. I think this show that our distance really getting very far. But when the time almost wanna off work, then she onli msg me telling that tonight she going out with her fren. So i let her go because this is her freedom.
By then after that, we less continue to chat edi. Once she reach home, she just telling me she reach home safety. Then after a while, when she on9, we totally didn't chat at all. I think she already get abit of her answer.
So at here i'm waiting for the answer till the last day. Eventhough it is a good news or bad news.. i will accept it and i will always respect her decision.

My fault

Since the day she back from trip, and begin on 23/2/08 i feel there is something wrong that has happen. She looks like wanna ignore me all the time. Whatever question i ask, she oso dun wan answer and didn't hear it. But when she ask me and i didn't answer then will say i'm look cocky.. Then like on 24/2/08 she totally mood down.. i chat wit her and ask her thing she just can answer me 1 answer.. she is totally different from the one b4 she like tis. I'm feel veri suffer and hurt when see like this. I asked what i hav done n did i do wrong thing.. she say not my fault. But i can feel it when she face wit me when chatting.. totally like dun wan to talk wit me at all. If i do wrong thing, can please tell me?